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I'm.Just.A.Girl.
Nov. 23rd, 2005
01:39 pm - Boys
Hey sorry i havent been online in a while i have been kind of busy so i finally descided to update my xanga yeah......
Anyways life at school seems to be pretty great or at least i thought it was..but omg so much drama..i dont even know what to do anymore...I mean i wish that i could have the courage to go up to the guy i like and tell him how i feel
It just seems like the more life goes on the harder it is for someone to talk to you when you like them...i have so many mixed emotions for this guy that idk what to do anymore so i normally go to my friend Rachel for help..she has been a really big help to me this week...i mean gosh it is so hard to figure out how people feel...
but i found out he likes someone i am just not forsure who he likes i really want to know who it is but i guess i will never know unless i get up the nerve and just ask him...i might start out by asking him to the ROTC Ball but i am just afraid of rejection believe it or not...i really understand how hard it is for guys to confront a girl...cause guys believe it or not girls have the same problem it might not be as noticeable but we are just alike i mean gah....
I just want to give up but when i gave up it was all bad and it is really not worth it...I just wasted my time when i could have gotten the courage to ask him instead of wasting my time wondering if he would ever ask me out...i feel really empty and feel like crying and yeah i mean i have my Bestest Friend Nicole but idk i just to scared to tell anyone about this about i figured posting it was a start i mean i gotta start somewhere..
Well high school friends have so much drama i mean you cant really know who are ur real friends cause the way you can really tell is the ones who are there for you until the end...and are willin to keep a promise well yeah i will update later okay well later...
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curiousApr. 23rd, 2005
08:00 pm
HEY EVERYONE...I AM BORED OUT OF MY MIND....LETS SEE WHAT HAVE I DONE TODAY...FIRST I WOKE UP THIS MORNING I TOOK A SHOWER...I CALLED MY FRIEND ROB AND WE TALKED FOR ABOUT 30 MINS THEN I WENT TO GO CHECK ON THE KITTENS THAT OUR CAT HAD...I CAME AND GOT ONLINE I TALKED TO THOMAS, KATIE, AND NICOLE...I FOUND OUT THAT WE WERE GOING TO GO SEE MY COUSIN SING AT HER CHURCH CAUSE EVERYONE THINKS SHE IS MRS. PERFECT BUT SHE IS NOT...THEN I FINIALY TALKED THEM INTO US GOING TO MY CHURCH THAT WAY I CAN HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS AND LEARN SOMETHINGS IN CHURCH...THE ONLY WAY I COULD DO THIS IS IF I CLEANED UP THE LIVING ROOM WHICH MY BRO AND SIS MADE A BIG MESS IN IT TOOK MY ABOUT AN HOUR TO GET IT LOOKING GOOD...I THREW AWAY A LOT OF STUFF OF THERES THAT THEY DID NOT NEED..I CANT WAIT UNTIL GOING TO CHURCH TOMORROW I THINK THAT IS THE ONLY THING THAT I LOOK FORWARD TO...I GET TO GO ON WED. WHICH ARE THE BEST...THEN I GET TO GO ON SUNDAYS..MAN AND I AM MAKING NEW FRIENDS WHICH ARE REALLY SWEET AND TRUST WORTHY IN MY OPINION..I HOPE MY BEST FRIEND NICOLE WILL BE ABLE TO COME TO CHURCH WITH MEE...LOVE YOU ALL
cheerfulApr. 19th, 2005
06:41 pm
HEY I AM HERE AGAIN UPDATING.... UM LIFE IS OKAY I GOT THIS ONE COMMENT FROM THIS PERSON AND TOLD ME SOMETHINGS AND I HAVE JUMPED TO FAST I DONT THINK THAT I WAS IN LOVE I JUST HAD BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH WHEN I AM AROUND THAT DUDE THOMAS I DONT THINK THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE...AND ANYWAY I THINK HE LIKES THIS OTHER GIRL SO I HOPE THE BEST FOR HIM....ME I AM STILL TRING TO SEARCH MYSELF TO SEE HOW I AM AND I THINK THAT I NEED MORE FRIENDS THEN WORRING ABOUT GUYS CAUSE EVERYTIME U DO U ALWAYS GET HURT AND PAIN IS A BAD THING TO FEEL BUT IT ALSO CAN BE A GOOD THING TWO I AM JUST LUCKY THAT I HAVE PEOPLE THAT CARE...I AM REALLY CONFUSED RIGHT NOW AND DO NOT KNOW WHICH DIRECTION I AM GOING TO GO....ALL I KNOW IS ONE THING AND THAT IS MY LORD WILL ALWAYS FORGIVE ME AND LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM AND I THINK THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME.. AS LONG AS HE IS WITH ME I CAN DO ANYTHING...
GOD ROCKS!!!!!!!!
confusedApr. 15th, 2005
05:03 pm
HEY EVERYONE I KNOW IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAVE UPDATED SO I THOUGHT I WOULD...LET ME SEE THERE IS THIS BOY NAMED T THAT I REALLY LIKE A LOT IT IS LIKE WHEN I AM AROUND HIM I GET BUTTERFLIES...I DONT KNOW WHY I GET THAT FROM HIM I HAVE NEVER FELT LIKE THAT AROUND A BOY FROM WUT I CAN REMEMBER BUT IT IS LIKE HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM HOME WHEN I AM AROUND HIM....EVERY SECOND THAT I TALK TO HIM IT MAKES MY DAY I THINK THAT I AM FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM AND IT SEEMS TO BE GETTING DEEPER AND DEEPER EVERY DAY...ALL I CAN SAY IS I THINK I AM FALLING HEAD OVER HILLS I DID NOT THINK THAT THIS WAS POSSIBLE FOR ME I MEAN WITH ALL THE STUFF I HAVE BEEN THROUGH I DID NOT THINK MY LIFE WOULD EVER HAVE ANY MORE MEANING IN IT....BUT NOW I HAVE FOUND THIS GUY AND HE MAKES ME HAPPY, AND MAKES ME LAUGH A WHOLE BUT AND HE HAS THE MOST CUTEST VOICE IN THE WORLD...I LOVE HIM LOL I LOVE T
lovedMar. 14th, 2005
06:05 pm
Okay well lets see friday i went to school....um cody called me on friday and told me how much he loved me and all this other bull crap....he said that he loved me and wanted to make love to be i was like OMFG i know you did not just say that...I was like man NOOO....then we got off the phone....I was like i dont think i like him anymore like that just as a friend...Then i called robbie (i was his first crush and he was my first crush.........but anyway we talked on the phone and got on the topic about Blue fuzzy handcuffs, chocolate surp, and whipped cream......hmmmmm the good stuff o yeah the hott stuff.....and he was like i think that u should get me those handcuffs...i said okay so wut do i get if i do get them for you he was like wut ever your heart desires...he also said i will not make you do anything you dont want to... I want him so bad i can taste it i mean man you know that you want something but u can not have it....
crazyMar. 11th, 2005
06:24 pm
Sorry have not updated in a while i have been kind of busy........well now that i am here lets see....wut should i talk about...well i am over Cody and man i thought that would never happen but i guess it has but hey you never know wut could happen with me and a guy lol well anyway....I am singing at a chours thing on the 18th of this month and wont be back until sunday then after that i am going to go to Laurens house to help me with my stunts because i am tring out for cheerleading and so is Nicole so we will work out together and make sure that we got everything right and hopefully we will make the team......Yeah well nothin much else to say but i will update if something new comes up...
happyFeb. 21st, 2005
12:14 pm
Well i am doing okay today....I talked to Cody last night about this dream that i had about him and he told me his dream..
Christina's Dream:
I was at Codys house and my mom was like there talking to his dad. My mom kept checking up on me and cody to make sure that we were not doing anything. Well after a while she stoped checking on us cause every time that she walked into the room we were watching dvd. So my mom had not came into the room for a while so then me and Cody started to make out and getting more into it so we like left the room and went into his room there we played around with "hand cuffs" lol now think about that......
Well we finaly stoped playing with them and started to take our clothes off. Then we had hott mad sex boy was it great!!!!!!
Cody's Dream:
I was walking around turning corners and Cody was following me. He kept running after me and came to a dead end so he was like where did she go. So he looked up and he saw me walking up there so he was like how did she get all the way up there. Then i came back down to him and by that time there were 20 of me. He said i surrounded him then it came back down to one. We started to make out getting ready to have hott sex...
Then he woke up and was pissed that he woke up. He said " Damnit why did I have to wake up.
Okay so yeah we both had some weird ass dreams. But hey i think that it was worth it. Then we talked about some other things that i am not going to say because it is a lil personal.
O hey i talked to Nicole today YEAH she is back from Florida soo that means that we can hang out yeah.....
happyFeb. 20th, 2005
03:46 pm
I am so bored and my brother is a A$$ hole He can bark up a tree for all i care so yeah wut ever. I have not talk to Cody in a while so i dont know wut is up there. Well anyway i will prolly be going to brandon house so yeah i prolly wont be online or if i am i will have to talk to you through e-mail because he cant talk on aim it is some lame rule his parents made up what a joke huh? well any way i will prolly update again later. So hope you all are having a better weekend than mee.
annoyedFeb. 19th, 2005
04:57 pm
I had an okay day. At the start of my day i woke up at 7 am then i got dressed in my chours dress for my solo and group thing. Then got at JL Mann at 8am and had to sit there until 8:50. Then i got on the bus and talked to Jessica and Jonathan..... They are so cool but anyway we talked the whole way to spartanburg high school. When we got to that school we went in a warm up room and sung. Then we followed this lady to this judges room and we went in there as a group and preformed. After that came the solo's so they did there thing and rocked the boat. We left the hall way and headed our way out the door while our chours teacher got the papers on how well we did. She waited until we got to the bus to tell us that we got superior. The solo's all got superior except this one girl who got excelent which i think she deserved it. Then that girl called her mom up and said that lady that judge us was a biach..........
peacefulFeb. 18th, 2005
05:33 pm
I am okay!!!!!! I guess. I got to talk to Cody. I LOVE CODY so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU
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